As long as I can remember, I've always depend on God and try my best to have faith in whatever things that I come across with. It's not easy to have faith when all you do is pray and wait, and most of the times, it takes time for something to finally happened.
May the Lord bless my journey on earth.
Meanwhile, I stumbled upon some difficulties in life almost regularly. As per yesterday, it came back; the difficulties. Mixed feelings and my disability to escape from all those troubles makes me anxious and gloomy. I felt weak and my tears ran like running water. All sorts of thoughts filled my brain, as if giving me the choice to pursue all the negative things to satisfy my pity self.
I analyzed every detail of the problems. I tried my best to avoid the negative thoughts which include wounding my wrist with a knife. That's crazy, I know. People do that sometimes. I wanted to drink and smoke to forget the problems. Drive my car as fast as I could. But, through all that, I remembered God the most. He wouldn't want me to do such things.
I rejected the cigarettes which was offered to me. I went pass through the restaurant that sold alcoholic drinks. Because I remembered that God is always there. I say the prayer of Hail Mary many times and I think God spoke to me through the prayers, to not do the things that is unreasonable.
This little thing called Faith, allows me to choose the good side of everything. It provides me a reason that there is something for me to believe in, and that is to believe that God has a better plan.
