Live today as if tomorrow never comes

Live your life as if tomorrow never comes..  Forgive those who have hurt you.. Do something fun and crazy as if nobody's watching or listening.. 

You will only be able to do this once in your lifetime..

It's Okay Not To Be Okay

It's been a while since I last post something here. I've been emotionally distress again lately, and I realized that it has been going on for a few weeks. 

But somehow I managed to cover all my emotional state and pretend that it was not there by doing something to distract me from overthinking. I kept myself busy by doing my own business. I forced myself everyday, but at some point, I know that I have to let go of my emotions. 

At this moment of writing on this blog, I pat myself on the shoulder and said to myself "It's okay..You have done a great job!" 

You have endured so much nobody wil be able to handle this as much as you. If you were to compare this burden to your close family, maybe they will never be able to do that. 

But then again, everyone on this earth is carrying their own burden no one could ever imagined. It could be seen as a simple matter, but what he or she carries sometimes can make them insane and go beserk. A perfect disguise. 

I don't have anyone to share my thoughts except God, and my blog. Thank you for listening to my thoughts Gund! 

Remember, when you are in this emotional state again, don't forget that you have achieved so much in your life. You've done well by overcoming all those difficulties..and you will be able to cope with it again everytime it comes. 

You deserved to be happy and you should spend your life gratefully. God is always watching over you. He knows what's best for you and He is forgiving. Don't blame yourself and be brave to handle the uncertainties of life. 

Stay safe..

Let's pray for the end of COVID-19 pandemic. Hopefuly the world get better soon.

The power of Letting Go

For the past couple of years, I've been trying to let go of some unwanted memories which made me hard to move on. Last year itself, there were so many songs that, I think, were specially meant for me. From the Disney movie "Frozen" with the song Let It Go...the song Let Her Go by Passenger. My intuition whispered to me that I should let go of the things that were not meant for me.

It's true. I couldn't let 'it' go that easily though. The ride is fun sometimes, but most of the times its a waste of time. I'm talking about relationships and stuffs..

For many times, I thought I've let it go. But it came back and I just couldn't resist. I just prayed hard and surrendered everything to God. I knew that God has different ways of answering prayers. I may not understand it, but God is my only hope.

Gratitude is a Great Attitude

Today, I would like to express gratitude for everything that I've got and been through. I just feel like I  need to do that. Just saying it out loud in my mind, make me feel refresh and anew.

Despite of my hurtful experiences being in a bad relationship, I am so grateful today for having someone who really appreciates me.

Despite of not having kids on my own, I am grateful for having the chance to feel how to carry a mother's responsibility.

Despite of being the main supporter for my new life, I've got someone I can rely on helping me doing the house chores.

Despite of not having an entirely big house that I've dream of, I'm blessed for having a small home to share my life with someone I love.

Despite of the fact that I can no longer receive the holy communion for now, God is always presence in my thoughts every second of my life. I get the assurance that He is with me, and telling me to be strong.

A thankful heart is a happy heart.

The perfect marriage

When I was a little girl, all my thinking was purely a fairytale; thanks to Disney's cartoon. Everything was beautiful and perfect; especially when it comes to finding the right prince. Tall, dark and handsome. And I would want to be like the beautiful princess. And they are just perfect for each other.

As I grew up, I encountered several couples and witnessed their sacred matrimonial marriage. It was a perfect wedding.

All I wanted when I was planning my marriage life, was to have a happy family of my own. I was getting ready for everything, and sacrificed a lot.

Never would I've thought that being in a marriage life would be so complicated. There is no perfect marriage. It was meant to be that way so that every couples could learn how to walk together in life. Through difficulties and insanities, both should always prepare themselves to accept and let go of everything that comes between their marriage life.

Maybe by doing that..just maybe, people will have a chance to have a perfect marriage.

A prayer for Trust in the Lord

Everyday is a challenge for me to go through life and most importantly TRUST the Lord. I'm trying my best but sometimes it's hard to say whether this is the right thing to do. Here, are some prayers that I'd search on the net.

This little thing called FAITH

As long as I can remember, I've always depend on God and try my best to have faith in whatever things that I come across with. It's not easy to have faith when all you do is pray and wait, and most of the times, it takes time for something to finally happened.

May the Lord bless my journey on earth.

Meanwhile, I stumbled upon some difficulties in life almost regularly. As per yesterday, it came back; the difficulties. Mixed feelings and my disability to escape from all those troubles makes me anxious and gloomy. I felt weak and my tears ran like running water. All sorts of thoughts filled my brain, as if giving me the choice to pursue all the negative things to satisfy my pity self.

I analyzed every detail of the problems. I tried my best to avoid the negative thoughts which include wounding my wrist with a knife. That's crazy, I know. People do that sometimes. I wanted to drink  and smoke to forget the problems. Drive my car as fast as I could. But, through all that, I remembered God the most. He wouldn't want me to do such things. 

I rejected the cigarettes which was offered to me. I went pass through the restaurant that sold alcoholic drinks. Because I remembered that God is always there. I say the prayer of Hail Mary many times and I think God spoke to me through the prayers, to not do the things that is unreasonable.

This little thing called Faith, allows me to choose the good side of everything. It provides me a reason that there is something for me to believe in, and that is to believe that God has a better plan.